BEDIM {Day 30}

Day 30, Thursday: React to this term: Letting Go

 

 

These are two words that I struggle with every day.

 

"Letting go."

 

I feel like I am in a constant state of stress.  Stressed about getting all of my work done at school.  Stressed about housework.  Stressed about yard work.  Stressed about not getting to do what I want to do, like lay out, garden, cook, exercise, go on dates, spend time with family, take trips, drink wine...the list goes on and on. 

 

I don't even know "real" stress.   I have good health, a great family, great boyfriend, a job, a house to live in.  These are all things that people stress about everyday, and I don't have to worry about any of that. 

 

But I sit hear freaking out because there is this vine-y sh** growing in our landscaping, and I want it gone but haven't had time to get rid of it. 

 

I sit here worrying that I bought an avocado Sunday, and now it's going bad, and I haven't had time to make anything with it.

 

Really?????

 

I struggle with "letting go" of all the little things that don't really matter in life.

 

I have made it my goal this summer, just to enjoy the summer and spend time doing things that I love with the people that I love. 

 

I am 25 and the times are coming when I will no longer be able to take trips all the time and do what I want because I'll be married and have kids.  So really who cares if I have to take off from the salon every other Saturday so that I can go on trips???

 

Not this girl.

 

I am "letting go" and worrying about what really matters. 

 

I feel a summer bucket list coming on...