Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Deja Vu

As some of you know (I tried not to talk about it too much this time so as not to jinx myself), I had a job interview for a third grade position at my school a couple of weeks ago, and I found out whether or not I got the job last night.  Read about my last job interview debacle {HERE}.

I did not.  (Hence the deja vu, and see the jinxing didn't even matter!)

I'm not going to lie, it really sucks, and I am not feeling to great about myself right now. 

It's that oh so familiar feeling of rejection that's overwhelming me. 

I know it's all a part of God's plan and blah blah blah.  I just want to know what that plan is already
Source: via Joanna on Pinterest

I'm tired of men getting hired ahead of me (especially men who have not even worked there before.  This is second time this has happened in case you didn't know).

My principal told me I improved slightly from my last interview (slightly-another word I hate, just as much as the word average), but he thinks I need more experience in other grades (I have always worked with kindergarten).  Therefore, (not only did I not get the job, but also) I am being re-located to a different classroom with a different teacher in a different grade.  So I can get more experience. 

That is good I guess (see I am trying to be positive).  Don't get me wrong, I REALLY like all the teachers at my school wouldn't mind to work with any of them, I just REALLY liked where I was, and I always said that if I didn't get a full-time position I would be completely happy staying where I was.  WHERE I WAS.  See the key words?

I am especially having trouble because no one is telling me what I am doing wrong. How can I improve if I don't know what I am doing wrong? Even in my evaluation this year my principal told me he didn't have anything for me to improve on, and that he has loved all the work I have done and thinks that I did a "bang up" job. All he said was that we need to work on getting me hired! Fail. :-/

I am also worried that by the time I do get a full-time position, my spunk will be gone, the novelty will wear off, and I won't be as enthusiastic as I once was.  I don't want to turn into a bitter, resentful teacher (we all know the type).  Hopefully this doesn't really happen does it?  But it is one of my worries.  I want to love coming to school EVERY DAY. 

I want to feel like this forever!
Soooo that it my rant.  I promise I won't rant about it anymore.

For now I am just going to remember this quote!



SC Teacher 28 said...

Remember that you will end up where you are supposed to be. It is difficult to think about that when you are going through a difficult time. I hope your week improves!

KinderKids Fun

Alisha said...

Keep your head high, girl! Sometimes I honestly think that they have a hard time hiring a para or a sub because they don't want to lose you in that position because you are so fantastic at it. Yet, it is so wrong. A job will come your way. You are correct that the principal should be attempting to help you in this process if he already thinks you are doing fantastic at your job.

FirstGradeBlueSkies (Jennifer) said...

((hugs)) Hang in there!
First Grade Blue Skies

Heidi said...

Bloggy hugs to you my friend. God's plan is the best plan and you are where God wants you at this given moment. I know it is hard to stay positive at a difficult time like this, but it seems as though that is what you are trying to do, although deep down it hurts. I will pray that a job opens up for you and that you get that job :) I hope your school year goes well for you :)

My (Not So) Elementary Life

Jessica Ann Stanford said...

I'm so sorry to hear this Elyse! I don't think your principal understands what he's missing by not putting you in the position! No matter where you are you are helping students and that truly matters. I know it's hard (and not what you want to hear) but you are completely right about it being God's plan and not ours. He has bigger and better things for you and once those things come around you will understand why these things happened the way they did. Until then smile and keep spreading your passion to those kiddos!!

✏ Mrs. Stanford's Class ✏

Sandra said...

Sorry to hear about your interview... but that means something else is waiting for you! I was in your shoes 3 years ago... no one would hire me... after interview and interview all the principals said I was great but they hired the person with more experience blah blah blah!!! It was really sucky but then in September {month after school started} I got HIRED!! :) Now, I'm about to start my 3rd year.
I know I wouldn't be as happy as I am now if I would've gotten hired at the other 7 schools I interviewed for... I just had to wait for the best!!! :)
Sweet Times in First

Megan Wadsworth said...

Job interviews are so frustrating. I have a hard time every time we move because I'm a military spouse. As soon as they find out, I almost get eliminated automatically because they know I won't be permanent and will be leaving in a year or two. Totally sucks, but eventually it has worked out great each time in the long run. Sending all the best thoughts and luck your way!!!

Jen R. @ The Teachers' Cauldron said...

aww...big bloggy hugs!! It definitely makes it worse when they don't tell you what the issues are :( But you are right - God definitely has a plan for you...just keep faith, my friend! :)

Mrs. Lundquist said...

Hugs! It will happen! The first time I interviewed with my principal, I did not get the job! I was devastated! I had been a sub at that school and thought that I had the job for sure, but no. Well, I kept subbing and then she asked me to accept a kindergarten position a few months later. A few years later, she moved to an academy school in the area (the best school around!), and I interviewed for a science position there and I got the job! She now laughs about the first interview and says "What was I thinking?! I should have hired you the first time!"

Nicole Heinlein said...

So sorry to here that! I hate this terrible economy where no one can get a teaching job! It is just too bad that good people who care so much about kids can't follow their dreams :( Hang in there. Something good will start to happen. And who knows, you may love your new grade and new teacher even more! :)
Teaching With Style

Holly said...

I don't know if hearing stories about people who have been where you are and things worked out for them helps - but I just have to share that I subbed for 3.5 years. It was that last 1/2 of the 3 1/2 that I realized I may need to look into something else...go elsewhere...change something but HOW? WHY? I knew nothing else but kids and teaching such a scary proposition to think I may need to do something else with my life. And as you've probably guessed...I was got a long-term and luckily for an influential principal in the district who more than put in a good word for me in my interview. STILL, that wasn't enough to land the job though and my first principal didn't hire me Fortunately, I landed another interview and I vividly remember leaving saying to myself "if I don't get this job - I won't get one because I OWNED that interview"...that was the difference for me between that interview and all the others. I owned it...I was more confident than I had been in any other interview.

You can do this...it WILL happen. Don't give up. Sucks though, doesn't it??!?!?

Big hugs - and I'm now your newest follower and will be following closely and can't wait to be here on the day you say "I got the job!!!!!!!!"

Crisscross Applesauce in First Grade

Elyse said...

Thank you so much! All of this bloggy support makes a HUGE difference! :-)

Elyse said...

I hope that is not the case, but I have a feeling that is part of it. Thanks for the support girl!

Elyse said...

Thank you! Just writing about it makes me feel better! :-)

Jessica said...

I am so sad to hear this :(. I'm really sorry you didn't get the job! Have you thought about setting up a meeting with your principal where you can ask for a critique of your interview? It is also really frustrating that he has acknowledged that you are ready to be hired, yet is not making it happen. Hopefully he is not not hiring you just so he can keep you as an aide, because he knows you are good at that. Keep your chin up and don't lose your enthusiasm - you are going to be an amazing teacher as soon as someone opens their eyes and hires you!! But I know waiting can be frustrating - HUGS!!!!!!

Gladys said...

Hang in there...prayers and {{hugs}} are being sent your way!


Elyse said...

Thanks for the prayers! I know it will happen someday. I just have to be patient!

Elyse said...

Thank you Jessica! All this support really means a lot!

Elyse said...

Thank you for your support! It's good to know that a lot of teachers are having/had the same problem!

Elyse said...

Thanks I definitely need it!

Elyse said...

Thank you so much! :-)

Elyse said...

It's crazy how everyone seems to have similar experiences with finding a teaching job. It makes me feel so much better!

Elyse said...

Thanks Nicole!

Elyse said...

Stories help SO much! Thanks for sharing! It does really suck, but I'm sure it will get better eventually! Thanks for following!

Elyse said...

I hope that's not why, but I have a feeling that it might be part of it...who knows!?! It's such a game! haha. He is going to be calling me with details about my new aide position so hopefully we can have a chance to talk about it then! Thank you so much for ALL of your great support! It means so much. You are a great bloggy friend!

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